When I think of Christmas I think of cookies and presents
What others think of is eggnog and dinner parties
What I don’t think about is the smiles
What I don’t realize is the love I feel when someone opens my gifts and smiles because even if it wasn’t what they wanted they still loved it.
What I don’t think about is the anxiety of watching them open said gift and not liking it
Or hating it
Because you have to realize that even if it wasn’t something they wanted it was something you took the time to think about and got for them.
It’s even better when its someone you love. they look at it them you with a warm-hearted smile because you thought of them when you got it.
Christmas isn’t just presents.
It’s the thought and work you put into getting the gifts
It’s the time you took out of your day to get that person something
No matter how big or small
Carrying
tHe
Right
Item
Sends
The
Most
Amazing
Signal
I love the cold
I love the winter
Not because of the presents or the holiday
It’s because of the people I spend it with
I got the guy I like a present and I found out he got me one too
I don’t care that he got me something
I care that he took the time to think of what I would like
I care that he even thought of me
I didn’t realize how little getting a gift meant to me
But how much the time and thought it took for them to get me it
I care that they love me enough to get me something
I got my best friend a necklace
I got my mom and dad bracelets
I got my brother and sister t-shirts
And my other sister and her husband popcorn because I had no idea what to get them
No matter what I get I know my family and friends love me.
That’s all I could really ask for.
I love everyone I know
I’m grateful for what has happened this year.
The year started out like sh*t
I was taken out of school for a month because I tried committing suicide….twice…
I lost my grandma
I lost 3 friends across the world
One of my friends moved to the other side of the world
A few of my pets died
My girlfriend of 4 years dumped me
And I still pulled myself out of all of it
I still got up in the morning
Even if it was late
I still went to school
I’m still trying
I’m still looking for the light in every moment of the day
I’m still looking for something to keep me going
And for once I found it
In my friends,
Family,
Classmates,
Teachers,
The guy I like,
Even my cat.
Because I know everyone is supporting me
Just takes me a little while to see it
I’m getting there…
Just need a little more time to get used to it.
This year has been
Up,
Down,
Left,
Right,
Sideways,
And twisted…
I still came out okay…sorta
Merry Christmas…
Happy Holidays…
Happy anything you celebrate or don’t.